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Tuesday, January 4, 2011 @ 12:29 AM
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I was in the bus, on the way home from work when I flashbacked to the argument we had on the 2nd of January. I then thought if I was gonna live with that kind of heartache forever? Cause I had a lot of it in the past and definitely don't wanna see a lot of it in my future also. For that point of time I said to myself...


"If I were to be granted ONE wish, I would wish for my memory to be able to delete and save. So that I can delete the bad memories and save the good ones. Whatever heart ache or bad experience with my ex, I want to delete it!"

Then after a few seconds, I realized that to learn to love, you gotta learn from heartbreaks. If it wasn't for the mistakes i've made to be in a relationship with a jerk and wasted my damn time, I wouldn't become what I am now. My boyfriend may see me as impatient but truth be told, i've improved waaaaay lot than last time.


I WAS a control freak.
I WAS a constantly angry girlfriend.
My ego was HUMONGOUS!
I was a girl that no guy would wanna stay long with.

Reason because I held on too tight. Through the bad and good times, i've learnt all the different characters. Well, I think most of them. Like for example; Guys hate it when their egos get turned down by purpose, especially by their own girlfriend and MOST HATED when it's in front of his dudes. He will purposely insult you back and you're just gonna end up arguing.

There are more which I would love to list down if I wasn't so sleepy. My main point is, memories, be it good or bad are meant to be there forever. There's a reason why you can't forget certain bad memories. And believe it or not, sometimes you can't even recall the good ones. Never wish that you can erase the bad memories cause that's where you grow wiser. You learn from mistakes and somehow be more matured about handling things.


Even when I know I deserve better, my heart tells me to stick to him.
And be patient. Cause something tellls me it's gonna pay off.
The love i'm battling through right now is definitely a war.
I take the risk of going to the enemy, win or lose, at least I tried my best.
And I believe that matters the most.
But dear, you gotta learn to appreciate okay?


Sincerely, I love you.




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