Tuesday, October 12, 2010 @ 11:00 AM
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"She's indecisive, she can't decide"
How is everyone? For me, life isn't very stable nowadays. My parents, I really don't know what to say. I'm just disappointed that they both refuse to set out their differences and talk things out. My mum would ignore the problem, making my dad think that she doesn't care about this family at all, which actually leads to another problem. It sucks to be the one at home, cause my mum isn't working and she would vent her anger at me.
That's why I would do anything to go out of this house and come home only when both of them are asleep. Home is at the bottom of the list of where I want to be, seriously.
You know how at one point of time, it seems that your life is going downhill at a very steep slope. You can't seem to stop it and you feel so helpless. All you could do is just hope that when you reach the bottom, you survive or someone/something would save you in the middle of it all.
And to YOU. Do you know how much it hurts to be soooo close to you but not able to have you in my arms or call you mine. You treat me so special, well, I feel that way. How you grab my hands and interlock your fingers with mine. How you try to stop me from crying, with REALLY STUPID ways but it works anyways. How someone so obnoxious gain all my attention.
I'm downright rough with all the other men and so with you. But when comes to the topic about feelings, you can make me cry without even saying a thing. You make me cry without you knowing it as well! Meeting you is difficult cause everytime I do so, I have to hold back my tears. Can't you see that?
Si jepun.