Saturday, September 4, 2010 @ 12:34 AM
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I am so angry. So pissed off that i'm shedding tears of anger. Yes, I cry when i'm feeling so angry and helpless. It's just that we were doing fine, just as friends and I liked love what we had and what we shared, until YOU came along and break whatever bond that we had. You're prolly with him now and goddammit, paranoia is eating me alive! Can't you just F*** OFF?
I received a few texts just now from ______. They go as follows. The first one:
"I mula merasai yg u dh dpt lupe kn i. . . .its ok dear. Sempena bulang ramadhan no. . ____ menyusun 10 jari memohon ampun di perkare2 buruk yg ____ laku kn terhadap diri nana. Mahu pon di hadapan atau blkg nana. Halal kn makan minom ____ selame kite bersame dan akhir skali. . Slmt menyambut idulfitri yg akan tiba. . Maaf zahir batin. Yg ikhlas. . ____."
"I jusz wana say tat im proud 2 tel semue org yg u my mataer. Pi syg skali kite tk lagy bersame. Hw i wish tat setiap ke esokkn hari adalah 2nd of april 2010. Ma first kiss yg i beri kn pade u."
"People alwayz say tat u only have 1 wish 2 make. N wen i saw ur photo. . I wish tat u jadi mataer i. My wish was granted. Kalo lah i wish tat u jadi isteri i. Mungkin semue ini tkkn berlaku seh. U r so special 2 me nana."
These 3 messages almost set me to tears, I swear. It was the toughest relationship i've ever had. Firstly because I had to hide so many things from my parents. Tak ada restu, relationship will be very difficult. Secondly, I've been cheated on so many times and yet I forgive him even if I still can't forget. Sigh, aku dah takda mood. Goodnight.