Friday, July 30, 2010 @ 3:41 PM
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Baby, I miss you (referring to picture above).
I'm listening to Tiesto on such a slow Friday afternoon. I'm so bored at home. I wanna go out so badly. Anyone wanna date me out tomorrow? No, I don't mean a guy, could be a girl. Anyone in fact. I hope Bear top-up soon cause I really miss him. Rindu lah berbual dengan dia sampai larut malam. Fuh, melayu aku halal or what? I hope he asks me out tomorrow. I don't wanna be the one asking him out. Yeah, aku ego, so?
My love towards Beng is fading, nearing to none, and it's a good thing, I must say. It's true what they say, time will heal all. I just don't know how to shake him off. He's very clingy and refuses to let me go. Talking to him won't do the trick. He'd just assume that I have been dating some other guy behind his back (which I did, once. But that was only cause we weren't contacting). He always thinks of me as the other girls he have met. Those that would just GIVE. I'm not.
Honestly, there is no other in my mind right now other than Bear. And ibu, cause she's the one I always have my late lunch cum dinner at home with. Now that she's away at Jakarta, rindu pulak eh. But nevermind, she'll be home tomorrow evening (:
Oh yeah, back to Bear. His name is ____. Go figure. I'm not prepared to reveal anything to anyone yet. Maybe just my close friends. I got a lot to tell, a lot of feelings bottled up. He doesn't know very much cause, well, I can't say the reason out but he just doesn't know. I really am hoping he would tumble across my blog and read all of this cause boy, i'm falling hard on the ground for you. My superwoman cape isn't working anymore. I'm not saying i'm in love people, don't assume.
I've been thinking a lot of my friend's well-being. Like how Mey is doing with her new boyfriend. Is she doing okay with her job? Does she miss me? And how Leia is coping with everything. Malik? Did she get a job as a nurse in any hospital? I assume not yet cause I go to her blog everyday for any updates. How bout Salihan, is he okay with his brother. Or how he's doing with F____? Or Fitri aka Wak. How is he doing in school? He seems happy with his new friends. Any friends taking him for granted? Cause he's a very nice and kind-hearted guy, people always take advantage.
Then memories flashed, moments i've spent with my old clique. Everything has changed huh? There comes to a point of time in life when everything and everyone starts to settle down. Concentrate on what's important in life such as a relationship you're starting to take VERY seriously (marriage), a proper and stable job, thinking about where you're gonna stand 10 years down the road. It's this point of time in life when you feel so alone even when you have family and your loved one by your side.
You'll feel lost and going nowhere.
Trust me on this one, you just have to look towards the correct direction (: