Thursday, March 25, 2010 @ 9:24 PM
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Then the heartbreak and the tears,
I wanna thank you for making me stronger.
Every relationship is a learning experience. Don't ever say it was a waste of time and it was never worth being with him/her. It may be true (definitely is) but you gotta learn how to look at things optimistically. My mum always say, "It's a good thing it ends now, you see his true colours. Rather than being with him for a very long time and breaking up after knowing he's been doing it behind your back all along is even worse."
I guess I never listened to her. I should have, I wouldn't waste my time mourning over a dead relationship, or perhaps just a failing one. I just realized that ______ & I, it was unconditional love. We didn't set expectations or criterias. We just went with the flow and see how things goes. I have now seen and realized that he was never my knight in shining armor or prince charming. He was just a regular guy, with flaws and guess what, I still loved him!
Yes, Rizal got it right. He knew I wasn't ready for another relationship. He knew that I never forgot about _____. He knew that my ex was still on my mind. I know he knows but I just played pretend. With a heavy heart, i'm saying that i'm ready to take a step forward and will try my best not to look back.
Good enough okay, all i've been doing is just stay with the past and refuse to look at the future.
I gave him one too many chances, everything he wanted.
Till I was hindered, so I guess it's time to stop.
I guess i'm better off on my own.